What have I been doing?

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What have I been doing with my life?  
After looking back at 11 years of Catboy at the Con and other artwork I just remember what my father said to me the first time I showed him my drawings as a kid.
"You will never get anywhere with those." 
And you know what?  He was right.  I am still that loser kid that is thinking that in just a short 5 years I will be working for some big company... or have my own tv show... or something stupid like that.
I don't know what to do anymore.  I love my characters... but I don't think that I can stand myself anymore.
What is wrong with me?
Am I just some fucking loser?
Am I lying to myself when I think... yep tomorrow will be great?  or better?  or good?  or whatever?
Am I lying to myself when I think I deserve that next breath of air?
Am I lying to myself when I think maybe I should just give it all up?
I don't know.
But I hate liars.
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Numbsoul's avatar
Same story, pal, but you know what, you are amazing!!!

First question: Are you came closer any time in the past to  a company on the media (comics publishers, editorial publisher, animation studio)?

Maybe you had not do enought to let us know more of your work, I mean, in a massive scale.

Obviously you have the passion, I know it, I already :+fav: always your works, and that's the feeling of many of us here on DA that admires you.

So please, don´t be so cruel with yourself, just try to do something else by share your art with others, that's gonna be hard, you know that part, but this is what you really want, fight for it!!!


You gonna do an amazing work, just keep it up, sometimes we are in the worst mood or just have a terrible time, but just each one have the potential to do the best with our lives, and you, SIR, you are not that loser, and you know it!!!

Believe me, you have the right skills to do some great stuff with all taht you already done.


I trust in you.

Hs.